Working for a living

So I've officially been a working mom now for about 2 months. With as much dread and anticipation I had about it initially, it's not so bad. In fact, sometimes I like working. There I said it. I feel guilty even thinking about how I sometimes enjoy time away from my son, but I think having a balance is what makes life enjoyable. I'm getting into a routine now at work and somewhat feel competent, so that's a nice balance to the times as a new parent where I feel absolutely incompetent. I enjoy being social with my coworkers and doing work that I feel good about. It makes the time with my son just that much sweeter. I absolutely adore that little man.

Now, while I do enjoy the work at times, I would still love to work less. Ideally, 2-3 days a week of work would be perfect. I even wouldn't mind putting in long days (10-12 hours) since I'm already putting in 10 hour days, what's a couple more, really?

It has taken some time to get into the swing of things though and I'm sure now that I've said this, things will change tomorrow and throw me off. So I'm working 4 days a week from 12-10pm. Danny has been sleeping until about 7 or 7:30 which allows me on most mornings to get up before him and eat breakfast. He wakes up and I feed him which takes 45 minutes or so, then we go for a walk, he naps while I shower and get ready. Once he wakes up from his nap we play a little then feed him and get him ready to go and we are out the door by 10:30 or 11, depending on where I am commuting to. Then when I get home from work, he's asleep :( While I hate that I don't get to see him for the rest of the day, it does make focusing on work easier. I take the mommy cap off when I drop him off and then put on the work cap and then when I get home I can put on the Karen cap. All these caps and I don't even look good in hats...

Then there are the 3 days off I have. I LOVE having 3 days off in a row (all mommy cap here!). I feel like I can really spend some quality time with him. It will be even better once Football season is over and we can have more family time on Sundays. Although, I must say how impressed I am with Randy. He has given up quite a bit of his quality football Sundays to hang with me and D.

One of the biggest downers about working is not seeing Randy that often. He often leaves before I get up and I get home after he's gone to bed. But it is absolutely wonderful that D gets to spend so much time with his daddy and he spends so few hours in daycare. I have really seen such an amazing bond happen between father and son.

I'm going to do another entry about D's newest developments...